While I can't say I regret being up here or that I don't enjoy every minute of my time here, I do have flashes of missing the south.
Yesterday was horrible, we had 100km/hr winds and blowing snow, if that doesn't make you miss a warm Ontario day, I don't know what would. My house was shaking so bad from the wind, the water in my toilet had waves! I am starting to cultivate a little cabin fever and I haven't seen the sun in days! Mostly I think a few little things are starting to get to me living up north, things I really miss about the south. For example, sometimes I would just like to wear a pair of heels or some kind of work of beauty on my foot, but alas the boot of rubber is what I get. I love my stiff rubber boots, it's just sometimes I want to wear something that matches my outfit and doesn't make me feel like my name should be Jenny-sue! Sometimes I just want to be able to go to Starbucks first thing in the morning, get a Fru-Fru Latte and stand in line while listening to classy Cuban music! Sometimes I just want to go to 7-11 at 2am, get a Dr.Pepper Slurpy and then complain about how far behind the times we are because there isn't a 24/hr Walmart that I can go to after and do a little late night shopping. Yes I would shop at 2am, given the chance. There is a store in the States called Meijers that I have been to in the wee hours of the morning and lived through their many isles with an excitement. Sometimes I would like to just get on a bus, put on my headphones and ride anonymously for an hour without recognizing everyone, or have anyone notice or wonder what I am doing. Sometimes I'd like to just slip below the radar when I leave the house and not worry about anybody else's business or worry that they are worrying about mine. Most of these things have their charms in opposite living in a small community, but I came from a large city and just sometimes I enjoy being in a place where no one knows your name, you have destinations at all hours of the night to visit, good coffee is abundantly available and there are multiple radio stations to choose from.
One thing I miss the most are sounds and smells. How are the fresh smells of the pumpkins going to be this year or the far away cries of a train in the distance be without my ears to hear them. I miss the hum of cars racing away on the highway as it sooths me to sleep. Up here I get the bloody screams of dogs and ravens, while the dogs torment the ravens and the ravens torment the dogs, and the dogs torment the other dogs and so on. These are all things that I thought I could forget about, but i really can't and I don't think I will ever. The North is my home for now, but it will never be where I am complete. I am more sympathetic now when an Inuk tells me they can't stand Ottawa because they can't see anything for all the trees and buildings.
I moved to Nunavut 3 years ago with my husband and Alaskan Malamute. Here we started raising our first daughter Ezri and shortly before we left, became pregnant with our second.
As every journey has an end, we found ourselves back south again, dreaming of returning north one day. Please read about my adventures and continue to feel free to send me e-mails.