Tuesday, September 01, 2009

The end is near

The end of my time up north is near. Only 9 days left and I will be a citizen of the south once again. I've been having many mixed feelings over the last few months and days ranging between tears of leaving and utter excitement of returning to the land of retail.

The last few weeks I've been trying to overcome some of the symptoms that bother me during early pregnancy, but as I come into the second trimester, I'm starting to feel better and running out of excuses for not blogging. I still have a few good stories to tell while I'm still a member of the north club, and once I step back through the wardrobe, no one will believe me.

So, only 9 days left to tie up loose ends, pack and say goodbye to everything I've called home over the last 3 years. On one side, I'm convinced we're not leaving and I'm going about business as usual. On the other side, I'm having a melt down trying to cram in as much as possible before we leave because I'm frightened to death that we're never coming back. I'm trying to get out of the house as much as possible and just look at things, you know the way you would look at something on the first day you arrive. I've been here long enough that the scenery has become somewhat second nature to me and I don't want leave taking it for granted. I've also been out a few nights just sitting and watching the northern lights. I'm worried it will be the last chance to see them so brightly. I keep saying to Nathan "we'll come back, right? Maybe at the end of your career?". I just don't want it to be over, forever. I guess we'll just have to sit back and see where life takes us. Hopefully it will include another tour of the north, maybe even another northern territory. What I do know for sure is that the north is in my blood. It doesn't matter how excited I'm to get back to family, friends and Starbucks. I'll always be split in two. It's kind of depressing. This is pretty much how the story goes for most who live up north for any period of time.

Here Ezri is trying to help us get organized for the move.

17 comments:

Kennie said...

Excellent - she's helping pack up Start Trek! DS9 if I recognize those slip jackets correctly :-)

Come on over to the Yukon when you get "tired" of city life - Kara and I will take care of you!

jen said...

hahhah Kennie, I knew you would be good for picking out the DS9 Dvds! lol

Anonymous said...

If you're anything like me, The North will never leave you. Mid-March every year I 'm like a snow bunting... I start feeling the pull North.
I'm sure you'll get more chances to live in the Territories - after all: can't Nathan request a posting North?

Tina said...

Holy hannah is she ever getting big! We need to plan a "bloggers weekend" somewhere in central canada where we can all meet!

Alex said...

you'll be back...I stole your wallet!
oh wait...you're not gone yet. Well isn't this just awkward.

Unknown said...

2008?

jen said...

Tina, I'm totally up for a blogger convention!

Alex, glad to see you back in blogdom, you have a might long reach to grab my wallet. lol

Indigo, ok I have no idea where I left my brain lol. Thanks for keeping an eye on things.

jen said...

Fireweeds, He can request a new post, but I think we'll wait until the kids are out of school and we're "free" again lol.

Unknown said...

alrightttttt, 2009, cuz I have trouble enuff keeping track of where and when I am, ya know!

and the word verifications is boogisms.............I had a total boogism and could not see, or the boogisms really messed up my day, or damn! those sticky boogisms all over the place.

Matthew & Michele said...

A blogger convention is a good idea.

No idea how to start organizing that one.

LOL.

I'm not going to see you before you leave. I'm south until the 11th and then I'm back in Iqaluit until the 18th.

Jaime said...

Oh my god, she's sitting up! She seemed so tiny in April!

Peaches said...

Hi Jen, You are right the north stays with you always, and I'm sure you will be back exploring at some point! Nice to see that someone is keeping you organized too! I will be thinking of you during your move, it can be such a pain, and stressful. Hopefully I will get to see you when you are back here in the land of smog and Starbucks

Matt, Kara, Hunter and Cavan said...

Yeah! Ditch Ontario and come this way.

Good luck with the move. :)

Anonymous said...

Even though I am over the moon about you being south, I feel a little sad that I am looseing my northern conection. Loved being with you guys up there. Lucky me, will have you close but will miss Cape Dorset and all the people there. Love from Nana Deb

Indigo said...

the end is here

freckles said...

Come to the Yukon next time!

Aida said...

umm, Jen, the end is OVER :) so do you have a new blog now or you are still worshipping the porcelain god? :)